My oldest son graduated from PreK last week; and for me, along with celebrating this rather large milestone in his life, came a flood of emotions. I watched this little boy who I struggled to have (http://2momsonatrain.com/2013/02/26/journey-to-parenthood), who I sat in the backseat with on our ride home from the hospital, who I rocked to sleep in my arms (more times than I probably should have), walk into a room full of adults, with his head held high, ready to take on the next stage of his life.
For me, I thought about all of the changes that his graduation stood for; and even though I know he will always be my first-born, in September he will start Kindergarten, where his life and our relationship, will change forever. So as stood there, fighting back the tears, I turned my sadness into thoughts, my thoughts into words, and my words into this post which I call:
5 Things I Will Miss About My Child’s Childhood…
#5 LITTLE KIDS, LITTLE PROBLEMS – BIG KIDS, BIG PROBLEMS This is an easy one… I know that soon I’m going to long for the days of an 8 o’clock bedtime and 5-minutes of extra TV time!
#4 BEDTIME And speaking of bedtime, for as chaotic as every night seems to be, my boys still need/want me. Whether it’s them asking me to read another book, sing another song, or even just to lay with them to help them fall asleep; in a few short years instead of asking for “5 more minutes” of my time, they’ll be asking for more time in their rooms, without me.
#3 PICKING OUT THEIR CLOTHES I remember how exciting it used to be to go shopping for my kids; (yes, even though they are boys, I still loved shopping for them!) but at five and three-and-a-half, I’ve already lost this battle. Gone are the days of cute overalls, polo shirts, even a nice pair of jeans. If given the choice, my boys would trade in every single piece of clothing they own for a few pairs of sweatpants, some basketball shorts, some baseball jerseys, and good, old-fashioned, plain, white undershirts. (I know, I know, try to focus on all of the $$$ money I’m saving!)
#2 HUGS & KISSES I love being able to hug & kiss my kids wherever AND whenever I want (and I remind them that as their mom, I can do that!); BUT truth be told, my days of “public” hugs & kisses are numbered, as I know the embarrassment factor is going to come into play and soon I’ll be lucky if I get a kiss on the check, even at home.
#1 – HEARING THEM SAY ” MOMMY, HOLD MY HAND” Maybe it’s just that I know when I’m holding their hands, they’re safe; and that letting them go, even just to walk in front of me, symbolizes their independence…and ultimately, letting go.